i want to take pictures without posting them.
i want to take a shit without scrolling through buzzfeed.
i want to walk down the street and not be in the background of somebody else’s tiktok.
and i want to walk into a cafe where everyone is reading books.
//
i want to live without marketing my existence.
i want to have never learned whatever the fuck a hashtag is.
i want to try something just for the fun of it without being labeled an affront
to my personal brand.
and i want to stop staring at a screen when the whole sky is there for the taking.
//
i want to be as messy as possible.
i want to be caught in the wild.
i want to get married without telling anyone.
i want to live peacefully without the prying eyes of others.
//
i want to spend four years making an album
and not worry that only three people will ever listen to it.
because i existed before the internet.
and i liked who i was then.
— misao
in case you missed it:
05 santa monica (therapy), or “solo drives to jane”
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